4 Years

Time flies when you're having fun.  So I started this blog 3 years ago to celebrate my being cancer free for 1 year.  Yippee!  Since then so much has happened and I am so grateful for this blog that I miraculously have been able to keep mostly updated since then even if it means blogging about 3 months at once!  I wanted to keep this blog as somewhat of a scrapbook since I obviously don't do that anymore!  I was looking back at the first year of my blog and was pretty amazed at all that has gone on since then.  My girls are getting so old and really growing into fine little ladies.  We have done so many fun and amazing things since then and I love, love,love looking at all the pictures even though some people refer to me as "Fuji".  I read my first post about being cancer free and how positive and happy I sounded.  Who knew I would have cancer again a couple of years later.  I didn't even remember my cancer anniversary until it was over.  In the past it has been a big deal for me with dinner, presents and celebration.  This year has been a really hard year for me.  I haven't felt especially well for most of the year due first to my inner ear problem (although I am learning to deal with the almost constant motion sickness and headaches), and second to having a second cancer.  I guess I am super blessed and am definitely grateful for having 2 cancers that are relatively easy to cure and am considered cured from both.  But now I find myself wondering, what's next? The year after my thyroid cancer I decided to become very active, eat right, work out all the time and take a lot of time for me.  I think that I have spent much of this year feeling a little sorry for myself and constantly wondering what could possible happen next.  At the turn of this new year and another year "cancer free", I am finding myself wanting to get back to where I was the year right after my thyroid cancer diagnosis.  I am done feeling bad and thinking on the negative side of things.  I am feeling very optimistic about the year to come and am hoping that a little mind over matter will do me some good! So what if I pass out in the grocery store!  I really have to think of all the amazing things I am blessed with everyday.  I AM cancer free. I have an amazing husband who works hard and loves hard.  Two perfect little girls who love their parents more than life itself.  Friends that would do anything and everything for us if we ever needed it, and tons of extended family who would do the same.  I have a beautiful house that we love, a great job working with great people, my husband's business is successful, we have food on the table, water and electricity.  I just really want to make the most of every single day from here on out.  I think 16 months is long enough to feel crappy.  Here's to a new year and a new start.  A rebirth of sorts.  Back to basics. Wish me luck.  Happy 2012!!!

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